Pilgrims in Zurich

Somehow, I begin to see things from a deeper perspective.
Perhaps I was too shallow back then,
thinking that I have to be nice to everyone so that people may come to know Christ..
thinking that christians need to be nice.
No, it was all too superficial.
I have been superficial.

Many times,
I volunteered to help,
I volunteered to pray,
I forced a smile,
I tried to be nice.
But no, that wasn't me.
I am no Jesus,
I am imperfect.
I am aware of my own iniquities,
that I am not always right.

Life is not a bed of roses for Christians.
It's a tough road, and i finally know why.
Christians face a road of persecution.
Christians are not guaranteed with successes,
not guaranteed to be popular,
not guaranteed to have many friends.
It's hard to swallow but
The Christian road is a life full of thorns,
yet, protected by the grace of God.
We just need to recognise the blessings He has given us.
Be contented.
Be thankful.
Believe that this is the right path.
Follow the light.

I believe God has a divine plan for me.
My role here on earth,
is not to spread the gospel to every single person I know.
Not to be nice to everyone.
Not to pretend to be nice all the time.
But, to be myself
To have a sincere heart,
help when I sincerely want to
So that people may see Christ in me.
I need to be who I am.


Often, popularity and attention seemed so appetizing.
It definitely makes one feel good to have many friends around,
to be involved in all invitations to dinners, parties,
to be well-loved by everyone,
to receive tons of facebook messages from friends.
Deep inside, many of us are nice for an underlying quest for attention,
or acceptance by certain people.
But it's all too superficial.
Life isn't that perfect.
We need to look into things deeper.
Plainly being popular or nice won't bring people to Christ.
I should stop seeking for the attention,
just to make myself feel good.

People choose who they want to be with
.People choose to form their own cliques.
But i never believe in cliques.
Just like a cell group,
it shouldn't be a clique.
It should always be an open invitation to others,
welcoming people.
I am tired.
Yet, I have a long road ahead of me,
and I will continue walking.
But in the light of Christ,
and not in my own light.

There's always time,
always time to reach out,
always time to make friends.
But we choose the friends we want to make.
We choose the friendships that will last.
And I know who are the friends that will stand by me when the currents are strong.
And I appreciate and treasure them a great deal,
even if I don't express it outwardly.
But deep inside, I really do thank God for each and everyone of them.

I don't believe I am meant to be friends with everyone,
for that's just too idealistic.
There are people whom I am not meant to be friends with,
people whom I am not meant to share Christ with.
Then, I should spend my time and effort on others,
looking back to help those who have been left out,
those that have been rejected by many,
rather than trying to be their friends.

I think,
our role as a christian is not just about reaching out all the time but
We must always remember our fellow brothers and sisters.
Remember them in prayers, and build a community of faith.
Just like the church,
the people must build a strong foundation of faith,
in one body of Christ,
before they can go out together to spread the gospel.
A body cannot function without an arm or leg.

Too many times,
I feel disappointed with people.
Our love,
our friendship becomes transactional,unreciprocated, unappreciated,
and leaves us jaded.
The world always fail us
because of the expectations that we set,
failing to think of what God wants out of us.

Perhaps I have made wrong turns in my decisions, in my life,
and said the wrong things,
but I will move on. I have to.
And I will.
Time moves on and I still have a long way to go.
And I take joy with every disappointments that have come,
for there's always a message from God for every boulder that comes my way.

I will continue to pray for friends that have come and go.
For people whom I no longer am friends with.
For people that seems so hard to love.
For friendships that are so hard to go deeper,
For friends whom have too different principles from me,
that always lead to conflicts and disagreements,
For unreciprocated friendships,
For the hi-bye friendships,
For the people that haven't received God's love.
I pray that God's love will come shining through their lives one day,
not by my will but His.

Life isn't in my control.
I cannot control who I want to be friends with.
I cannot control the people I want to enter God's kingdowm.
But I know God has a plan.
He always has a plan for every friend that I am meant to be with,
for every circumstance and situation.
Life is no coincidence.
And I pray He'll give me an extra portion of faith,
for this road is too rough for me to handle alone.
And I know I won't be lonely,
for even if I have only one friend,
God's with me.
And I know my darling will always be my side,
walking with me.
That alone,
I take joy.
And am contented.
Count your blessings.

God, take control of my life.
This, I ask of you,
for I need to be broken,
to wash away all my imperfections.
I am a sinner.